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#41
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10-11-2016, 11:45 AM
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Re: My Relapse
Some are suggesting you smoke marijuana, but don't do that. I speak from personal experience and that shit only makes things worse. Just keep rolling with the punches man. I don't know if u have anyone who depends on you, but I know I do and that's the main reason why I keep fighting. Its an every day battle.
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#42
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10-11-2016, 12:24 PM
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Re: My Relapse
I have a friend that does this exact thing but on her arms. When I first met her I thought her arms looked like that either from picking at the sores/skin, or had horrendous bug bites all over. It looks painful :(
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#44
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10-11-2016, 02:52 PM
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Re: My Relapse
There was a show.. I THINK it was the cognitive behavioral therapy one, where they filmed these therapies with people who suffered from really bad OCD along with other anxiety disorders, and I think it was the one where there were two girls that would engage in the picking or the pulling out hair straight from the scalp as self soothing when the anxiety was so high. The girl with the hair pulling would have to wear wigs because of how bad she got with it, and the other girl that did the picking was covered in the picking scars/wounds. That made me so sad. I think it was that show. Very good show. And remembering the picker from that is how I assumed that might be what's going on with my fiends arms (before I became friends with her, but wasn't 100 percent sure) until I felt we were close enough that I could ask her about it without feeling too nosey or anything. When my OCD shoots up after my GAD goes through the roof, my go to thing is either picking at my fuzzy blanket, or running my fingers underneath my hair and pulling hard when I hit a tangle causing those hairs to break off, not at the scalp, but wherever I caused the breakage point and I keep doing and keep pulling the broken strands out until there's no more tangles to mess with. Its like a coping thing. For me I noticed. I'm being treated for those now since I couldn't manage them on my own anymore, they got worse. I find my meds help keep a lot of the anxiety way, which keeps the OCD at bay most of the time, but I noticed I was doing the hair thing again last night when I could not get to sleep and kept thinking about how long things are going to be shut down for due the rising water/flood. Couldn't stop worrying. Next thing I knew I had a lot of broken strands of hair in my hand. Are you on anything, or tried anything to help? |
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#46
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10-11-2016, 05:24 PM
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Re: My Relapse
Oh that's right, Im sorry, I forgot you had mentioned the wire wrapping jewelry! I don't know why I had gotten on the meds track..maybe because I was thinking of my meds, I don't know lol. But that does sound therapeutic! Like how you brought up your son doing the same thing, that reminded me of when I was little I would pick at my lips. Did it for years and my mom would get so mad at me. But I haven't done that though since I was a kid, but I noticed my kid developed that somehow. It caught me off guard one day.. I was like.. omg.. I used to do that! I try to make that stop because of bleeding and the lips looking the way they do, and constantly applying a special healing chapstick to them. :( But I know one cannot help it. It's almost automatic. I remember not being able to help it at all no matter how mad my mom would get. It was soothing in its own way. |
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#48
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10-11-2016, 06:18 PM
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Re: My Relapse
I never checked to see if anxiety disorders are a genetic thing. I know theres a couple of things that are, or being passed down..that would be genetic, right? I never thought I had any form of anxiety but looking back I can see it, but it wasn't as bad as it ended up becoming later on, and then I really thought about what my aunt said to me a couple years ago, saying that anxiety as a family curse (because at that time she was on xanax and whatever else).. I never saw it until she said that because for the most part, other than her, none of that side talks about any of that lol.. you know..things like that just arent "real" and just "drink more water!" Lol Even now I wont discuss it if im the phone with them, because it would be pointless. And I do drink a lot of water. Lol |
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#49
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10-15-2016, 07:27 AM
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Re: My Relapse
I don't cut but I do pick the skin on my thumbs. They are a mess and I am embarrassed by them but I just can't help it. I have done this since I was really young and I'm now 40. I do it when I'm stressful but it also comforts me too. If I'm sitting watching a movie I do it and don't even realise I'm doing it.
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