[legionknight]

I think you are fine and its really the cat that is doing this to you. Its evil and it has a demon in it.

[Ymmykay]

From a psychological perspective...this is fascinating.
From a non psychological perspective, I am now terrified of voices in my head that don't even exist.

[tedd1986]

I can imagine how hard it is.
A few years ago i was so down from work and totaly burned out.
I came from work at home and gone to bed. And suddenly a fucking flying Mask came to me and it dissapeared. A few seconds later again. That happend within 10 minutes 4-5 Times..

Just a white Mask with holes where the eyes and the mouth was.
They was flying towards me and then they just dissapeared.

I had to switch the light on to get to sleep !
The next day i had a meeting with a neuro-doc and he told me :

Yeah, that can happen when u are nearly burned out and full of stress

That was years ago and it never happend again !
Poor people who have that disease

[LERK]

This is been the best thread I've read here in a long time.

I appreciate all the people that shared their stories.

[Stevieaitch]

My son started to go off the rails when he was 15. We thought it was just a teenage thing but he started to spiral totally out of control and we lost touch with him effectively he was sofa surfing at people's houses getting g worse and worse. Would not listen and got some girl he was with pregnant. Then he realised he was hearing and seeing stuff and unknown to us he went and sought medical advice. Turned out he has aggressive paranoid schizophrenia. Aggressive as in the disease is aggressive not him. It is so heartbreaking to see even though he has managed to settle down with a lovely girlfriend and has had more kids frustratingly. I worry about this evil disease being passed on but they don't seem to realise. He has told me he is going to get worse and worse until one day the jabs jist won't work anymore as they run out of types.of medication which is effective. At that point he says he is going to be institutionalised and he has accepted that. I have tremendous guilt and I'm broken inside for my son who is really such a funny and daft sod it males me rage at the injustice of it all and how impotent I am at being able to cure or protect him from his own mind. Every now and then he gets put in hospital when he has episodes. He is usually in for a couple of weeks and then when stabilised he is let back out. He seems to have recurring themes and has named the voices and treats them as real people. He can even fight with them physically. He has had problems with drugs and drink as many do to try and mute the chaos but seems lately to be on a somewhat even keel. He needs to come home every now and then when his jab is wearing off as he feels safe here. He can't be trusted to have his jab now because he sometimes thinks he has had it but hallucinated having it. Even though we noticed a change in him at 15 he says he always had the voices growing up until they got worse and needed medicating. He knew no different and thought it was normal and everyone had these friends or fiends inside . I despair for him and I think I try and shut it out a lot. Everytime i see him I get a reminder of how incapable I am of saving him but I don't show it for fear of panicking him. I have a lot of anger at the injustice of it all and I should put more of that energy into something positive and interact more with him. There is a lot of pain around me.

[gringo1965]

ok ,, your television priveleges are now gone .

and you need to find a tall parking garage .....

go to the highest level , and jump off it

[JoseQuinones]

Originally Posted by spycosis ↗

I have had what are called `schizotype-psychotic episodes` in the past.. I was first diagnosed with schizophrenia at 22 years old, although later in the same year this diagnosis was changed to one of `schizotypical psychopathic personality disorder` which means I am not quite the same as a schizophrenic, although sometimes I do hallucinate, but my hallucinations are nothing like what we see in this video.

I see things that could be real, ie. not monsters and stuff like that. I might get a knock at my door and open it to find some friends from years ago visiting me. This actually happened about 5 years ago. I let my friends in, we drank coffee, talked and then they disappeared from the sofa right before my eyes. I thought I had fallen asleep and they had left. However my housemate told me he had found me talking to myself that day and I was totally unresponsive to him. I called my friends who had visited only to find out that they had not been to see me. That was an embarrassing conversation.
Sometimes when my eyes are closed I do see horrific faces, though I cannot compare this horror to the type we see in horror films. It is not at all gore-based. It is often a face so frightening that I cannot describe it in words, only that it is the worst thing you could ever see in your life. Fortunately I know very well this is originating in my mind and not an external threat.
I also have auditory hallucinations though rarely. Again I know these are coming from inside my mind but it sounds the same as real sound and I cannot make it stop. Trying to make it stop by concentrating actually makes it worse. These are often multi-track noises. Weird synthetic sounds playing at the same time as voices that say nonsensical words. Often I hear this speech repeated, layered over noises -
`Ik wildow dickel octabuss cosell entric dia corenn jongonn lokliokel....` For some unknown reason my brain plays that a lot.`

I am not paranoid, I do not have delusions that people want to hurt me, and I have never acted in an aggressive way in public because of my hallucinations. If anything they make me withdrawn and reclusive. I do not take medicine anymore as it was causing Parkinsonism and made me unable to experience pleasure, excitement or humour.

I go to work everyday. Most people in the world have no idea about my condition. This is my psychosis.

Ik wildow dickel octabuss cosell entric dia corenn jongonn lokliokel

You're hearing the phrase, "Ic vildum [dickell] octabus quaesel, enteric dia cor en dsaum lo hic kal."

That is an old Latin chant for the dying soldier. "At this moment, [name] is treading at the lintel, his soul seeking passage to what reward lieth there."

You probably heard this in a movie or ceremony long ago and it stuck.

[spycosis]

Originally Posted by JoseQuinones ↗

Ik wildow dickel octabuss cosell entric dia corenn jongonn lokliokel

You're hearing the phrase, "Ic vildum [dickell] octabus quaesel, enteric dia cor en dsaum lo hic kal."

That is an old Latin chant for the dying soldier. "At this moment, [name] is treading at the lintel, his soul seeking passage to what reward lieth there."

You probably heard this in a movie or ceremony long ago and it stuck.

I am shocked that the nonsense I have heard has actually a meaning in Latin. The implications of this are not lost on me. I need time to process what you have told me. In any event thank you for your reply. I wish you a beautiful day and life.