Thanks for that; so sorry to hear what happened to your mother. Personally, I think drink is the true demon. It fucking eats people from the inside out. Ive got a friend, whose husband was a heroin addict; kicked gear, and started drinking instead. He was drinking for around 18 months, cheap nasty cider and plonk; nearly fucking killed him. He had been on gear for almost 30 years and drank for less than two, and fucked his pancreas up and his stomach and liver. If he didnt stop, he would have been dead in a couple of months. Thankfully he did rehab and sorted himself out, and is now sober and clean. Yep, drink is the bad one alright. Sadly, its veneer of social acceptability and huge amounts of dough made from the taxation of it means that its here to stay.

I agree drink is bad too. I woke up once in the corn patch during my worst. Had vomited up some coffee ground looking stuff, I'm sure. I think that was my rock bottom. Not good.