The Way Anorexic People Think

paplex · #21 ● 08-15-2010, 06:20 PM

Ive been here for a couple of months now, ive never post anything not share anything here in DR but this post really made me sad, not the post itself but many of the answers you guys had, im 21 years old and ive suffered from an eating disorder since i have memory, no one knows wny i have it, or why i cant control it, ive been in treatment for years now, i have a beautiful daughter , an awesome boyfriend and a family that loves me no matter what, i ust want to tell you that its not our fault being sick, this is not a decision we took, the oldest memory of this sickness i have is being four in kindergarden and being scared to death to eat my lunch because i thought i would get fat and nobody would love me...its really sad, imagine its your baby, your sister or some 4 year old you love thinking like this... this brings tears to my eyes,,, and its really hard, i don look like the girls in those pictures now, but i had, im at a decn t weight right now, not my best , but enough to live moderately good, my heart doesnt work, mi kidneys, my liver, i have anemia, and ive tried with all my body heart and soul to get better and this is all i've achieved, i dont think i would ever get better than this... well i just wanted you to know what another anorexic chik thinks,,, btw dont know who wrote it but im a an anorexic girl, im not a bitch who deserves to dye, im as good for this life as you