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08-14-2010, 01:53 AM
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Re: The Way Anorexic People Think
words could never really explain the true suffering someone goes through with anorexia and other eating disorders. to suffer so much and yet still look in the mirror and see the fat ugly you staring back. it doesnt matter what you do, how much you lose. its always just a few more pounds, and one day when the delusion is broken you see yourself for what you are, a sick, frail, disgusting nothing. all your hard work all your pain just to look in the mirror and see something worse then when you started the sick journey into anorexia. you see who you really are, a monster. a monster that will never be loved by anyone. i sometimes think i was better off in the delusion, to see myself as fat. at least then i knew i could fix myself. now i know the damage i have done to my body can never be undone. i am forever locked in this empty prison of a body, these ribs that stick out are the bars that keep me forever locked inside, never to be free again.
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08-14-2010, 04:54 PM
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Re: The Way Anorexic People Think
Oh hun...(if your still reading here) I'm so sorry that you feel like you need to continue this- your so thin (and i know that makes no differency whatsoever to your view of yourself) Best of luck getting treatment. |