[Seven Of Nine]

Originally Posted by JackiRive26 ↗

I remember those pics Wingless, glad to see your doing/ looking great.

Thank you. There are (ever so slowly) more good minutes in every day, although there are still days like today when I don't think I will thrive again. Today hasn't been good but I am grateful for the ones that are.

[TwistedPrincess]

i wish i hadn't read this. i am not into house work. i have 4 totally cats in a one bedroom apartment. one is separated from the others and stays in my bedroom. which means cat food and litter box in the bedroom and also out of the bedroom. plus cat hair, cat hair and cat hair...everywhere donated by all four. i won't mention how much the cats have been upchucking hair balls and food due to the heat wave we have been having. i clean it up to the best of my ability but i'm sure those spots certainly aren't hospital sanitary. been here since 1996 and have never had the carpet cleaned. at this point cleaning is out of the question. the carpet is too far gone. could have it replaced but then my rent would probably go up. and i recently learned through googling, that the several flies i see every so often in the bath tub or bathroom sink are called drain flies and actually come out of the drain. ewwww! this wouldn't be such a big deal other than the fact hospitals have become almost like assembly lines. when a person comes in, its get them out as soon as possible. 37 years ago, a normal birth (non cesaerian) was a 3 day hospital stay for both mother and child. now a complete hip replacement - invasive surgery - where bones are cut and smoothed and a prothesis is inserted into the femur and you are stapled up... is a 2-3 day stay. and i will have to change my own bandage when i get home. a paper cut heals in about 1-2 days. a cut clear down to the bone... 3 days? i don't think so. germs here are going to attack my bandages when i change them and i am going to die. actually, i don't mind dying but i would prefer it to be while i am under anethesia, not by blood poisoning. surgery is on the 18th (tuesday morning) and if you never hear from me again count your blessings. (no more run on continuous yadda yadda yadda that you aren't going to read or even have to skip over.) in the meantime i think i will go and either vacuum or else stare at the apartment and space out.

i wish i hadn't read this because now i am scared about this surgery even more than i was before. on the other hand if you do hear from me again after surgery and i continue to post, who knows, maybe the info wingless angel has posted may be the difference. so you can blame her if i return. off to vaacuum and do some cleaning. i'm finished. thank you for those of you (if anyone at all) stayed with me through my pity party. now i feel a little better. sorta.

and wingless, i'm sorry you had to go through what you have and it is very kind of you to try to educate others to possibly save them from the same misery you have been through. you are an angel indeed!

[Brometheus]

thats one scary wall of text..

[Seven Of Nine]

OMGOSH!! Twisted Princess you're mind is going a mile a minute. I've read your post but I want to read it again before I comment further....

[Seven Of Nine]

Originally Posted by TwistedPrincess ↗

i wish i hadn't read this. ...

I don't know what to say... I'm going to put your name on a star tonight, I know it's not much but you seem as if you could use some good wishes ...perhaps if I see you first tonight, others will too and they will wish upon you.

You are clearly in need of support, not just because of this surgery but you seem to be in a bit of a situation at home. I'm not trying to be judgemental and I hope I don't offend you but do you have people around you who might help out with cleaning up at home? I realize it's unlikely it will happen before you return from your surgery but it does concern me, not specifically regarding the possibility of sepsis but your general overall health, both physical and mental.

You can yadda yadda yadda all day long with me if you like. I have nothing but time and patience so if you feel like sharing or venting or crying or screaming ...write here or send me a pm, ok?

[TwistedPrincess]

i didn't take my zoloft yesterday, i'm ok. a bit stressed due to my job situation and living on pain pills has taken its toll plus the fact that i always avoided old people as much as possible not really realizing i wasn't immune from old age myself. i have several people who are willing to help, i just don't want to be a burden. i have to laugh because i have had more offers for people willing to take care of my cats than me. but then that has been a main concern (my cats) which i have no problem asking for help with while i am at the hospital. i can stay at a friends until i am able to do for myself, i just don't like having to be dependant on someone. (i "can" stay is an understatement. she isn't giving me a choice)

i'll be fine. i should have read more things here first because that always puts thing in a better perspective for me. when i am down and come here, i realize my problems are nothing compared to others. at least i have my limbs and a face and my skeleton won't become my prison and i'm not growing tumors all over and i may be old but i'm not dying of old age at the age of ten or whatever, i haven't been burned to death by an angry mob, etc.etc. sometimes i forget that things could be so much worse. i just posted before i cheered myself up here, LOL! it makes me feel bad for others but so much more thankful about how minor my problems are. i'll be ok and i will be back after surgery. i'm a survivor. sometimes i get a little depressed but like the energizer bunny, i keep on going and going and going.

[Seven Of Nine]

I'll watch for your return TwistedPrincess, I'm wishing all the best for you! Let your friends help you as much as they will/can.

Good luck honey. :)

[lilbuzzkill]

My oldest son was septic when his appendix ruptured and we had no idea. He complained of stomach pains on a Monday, we gave him a otc pain med and he felt better the next morning. I had called his dr. who told me its just cramps, not to worry about it...By time Thursday came around he was in pain longer and longer and the otc wasn't helping. I took him into the hospital where he was given a ct scan and proved my point that something more was wrong..his appendix was in bad shape. We ended up med-flighting him to a larger hospital where I was told it was a 15-20 min surgery. 3 hours later.. the doctors finally emerged telling me he is septic and that his stomach, kidneys, and liver had temporarly stopped working.. I was so scared at that moment that I don't remember hitting the floor.
We ended up staying in the hospital for a few weeks while he recovered. And he did, fully.
He's a strong little punk, he loved being in the hospital and getting spoiled rotten by the nurses.

[lilbuzzkill]

I don't know why that double posted..

[DiamondSmiles]

I will keep you in my thoughts as well, Princess.

I will, "see", you when you return!

No one told me about getting old either! I thought I'd be 30-35 forever! It's sucks!

Everything you've done to your body either accidentally or on purpose, if, say, you were like the guys from, "Jackass", comes back with a vengeance!