[worldwideweedhead]

youre beautiful and capable of anything with enough support

[corpsehands]

may the force be with you

[NoelPuppet]

You'll bounce back. Keep fighting!

[ASplitPsyche]

Still smiling in most of those photos, you're definitely a real trooper! you've gone through a lot. My thoughts and prayers are with you

[Seven Of Nine]

Thanks everyone, for the kind words and support.

I want to thank DarkHorse, individually, for pointing out that there may be 'arthritic type pain' due to the Sepsis. I have had pain in my hands, wrists and shoulders since the end of January but wrote it off to weak muscles.

I had a great team in the hospital and I have a superb family physician I've seen for over 30 years. No one explained anything to me in regards to possible long term effects. It was only today as I reflected on what DarkHorse had written that I decided to do a search on the topic.

It appears I was extremely naive while in hospital and shamefully, having not been proactive by doing any research, remaining naive up until just a few hours ago. Reports became available late in 2010, which provide data describing a continual deterioration of cognitive and physical abilities among the 50% of people who survive past year 1 of the onset.

I'm in a strange place in my head this evening, as if I should feel relief to find out that I haven't become lazy or unmotivated. I mean come on, I'm so happy to know I've NOT been telling people I haven't the energy to do things just to avoid doing things. Of course I'm not relieved. I am no longer capable of doing things I did just 5 months ago. Look, I may be turning 45 soon, but my heart, soul and mind have always been very youthful. I'm scared that my body will no longer be able to keep up or that my mind will lose the ability to remain young at heart. I don't even know what I'm saying now except that I think I've come to, somewhat, understand the severity of Sepsis.

I took this photo as I completed typing this, just to prove I've come a long way. I plan on continuing to maintain a positive attitude, My struggles are nothing compared to others and I know I'm very fortunate.

People, please, be proactive. Research what you experience and don't count on the experts, as wonderful as they are, to know everything that is changing as it changes.

And PLEASE "Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle".

[durt]

You look good WA
And sounds like you have some relief knowing more about your illness

[DiamondSmiles]

"They", never tell you about these things when you're a teenager! Hell, I thought I'd be 30 or so forever! In my head, I'm just a big kid! Legally, well, that's anoher story ;)

Your attitude will help you a great deal!

[michmi]

Originally Posted by WinglessAngel ↗

They have not determined what caused the infection. I keep hoping my Dr. will call and say "The blank is filled in now", but as of yet, no.

Sorry to vent, I'm just really frustrated especially with friends and co workers who keep insisting that I should 'get out', 'go for a walk'. I just don't have it in me.

Tell them to fuck off. I'll keep you in my prayers that 1. You get back to 100%. 2. They figure out what the bacteria is.

[Calinip]

best wishes! you look great!!

[whoisjillian]

I hope for you and I am sending all of the positive energy I have to you. My sis went through something medical for about 2 years before she got a diagnosis and I know 2 years is long, but hang in there. I know you are probably so tired of hearing that but I just can't grasp the fear and frustration you must face everyday. Your story makes me realize that my life isn't that bad. Prayers and postive energy are sent your way. Keep kicking ass!