[Seven Of Nine]

@ DiamondSmiles

Hi! Hmmm, you've stumped me a bit with the 'depressed a couple of months ago' statement. I have had a LOT happen in the past year but I wouldn't say I've been depressed. I may have been down, but depression is something I battled once in 2006 and I've not experienced it since. I would recognize that evil if it ever touched my soul again.

I had written about my sister having e-coli and not being able to be treated, my mom becoming ill two days before Christmas, which made for a really sad holiday season immediately followed by me becoming sick. Then there was my car getting destroyed by vandals, that sucked. And of course my son moving out felt like the end of my world and I was sad but only sad like any mother whose only child leaves the nest. I'm also entering year 3 of an ongoing legal matter, but that too shall come to an end and when it does, I will have victory embroidered on all of my bath towels.

Even with all of these things going on I am not fighting depression. I laugh easily and cry once in a while when it's late and I miss the sounds of my son and his friends. It's easy to smile, I find humor and joy in an abundance of things.

Right now, I just want to feel healthy again for more than an hour or two. I'd like to have a bit of fun, maybe go to a beach for a few days in the warmth of the sun ...that would be really nice.

And, by the way, thank you for reminding me that you and others are here and really do listen. It means a lot to me.

[darkhorse]

I lost my right lung, and now suffer from sever chest wall neuropathy, and a herniated right hemi-diaphram so I have my ups and downs depending on the weather. But, doing the normal routines are important to feeling like your old self. You just have to pace yourself and do the hardest things when you have the most energy. Do to the sepsis you may have arthritic type pain due to chronic inflammation around your joints. Keep moving and ice down frequently. Intimacy with your love one will also return but you have to approach that slowly and rediscover what works best for you, and if your lover does not understand, it's time, they either become more empathetic, or it's time to find someone else. You're a beautiful woman I'm sorry this happened to you. Hang in there, and remember for every bad day there is a good one right around the corner. I hope you keep posting your progress.

[Oswald2001]

Originally Posted by WinglessAngel ↗

@Oswald2001

Thank you for your words of wisdom, I understand what you are saying. I'm not one to dwell on the maybes in life, I don't worry all too much about things I can not control. About the only thing you and I and everyone else has control of is how we deal with a situation, nothing more. I've been plugging away one day at a time it's just, with summer knocking on my front door I feel I'm missing out (didn't much miss the winter months ;) )

I hope you are well, strong and happy and I wish you all the very best.

I have to remind myself that:

"I am only responsible for doing what is humanly possible."

After that, I try to enjoy the experience of Life unfolding through me and around me.

Less and less, do I see myself as 'The Doer'.

More and more, my experience is one of being 'The Witness' of what is being done (and not by "me").

[bjansmith]

wow, this really hit me heavy. Thank you for sharing this difficult time in your life. I know this might not be the most religious community here, but I will be praying for you. I hope this all changes soon.

[Space Particle]

Originally Posted by WinglessAngel ↗

Poor baby, and poor you. Your strength and love will help him so much, that I know for sure. As a parent we will do what is necessary, but as a person, don't forget that you deserve to be taken care of too. I hope you have help with this. Be strong, or rather, continue being strong.

Thank you, he is a rather difficult child but to see his smile, it makes me melt! He suffered from tga a cardiac condition, and had surgery at 12 days old. Was on life support for 4 days gained kidney failure because of kidney shutdown. I love him and hes here for a reason! Oh honey I could go on! Thanks again....jacki and Dinaire forever

[darkhorse]

Winglessangel, you're so pragmatic! I love your sense of balance in life. You rock...

[Seven Of Nine]

Originally Posted by darkhorse ↗

I lost my right lung, and now suffer from sever chest wall neuropathy, and a herniated right hemi-diaphram so I have my ups and downs depending on the weather. But, doing the normal routines are important to feeling like your old self. You just have to pace yourself and do the hardest things when you have the most energy. Do to the sepsis you may have arthritic type pain due to chronic inflammation around your joints. Keep moving and ice down frequently. Intimacy with your love one will also return but you have to approach that slowly and rediscover what works best for you, and if your lover does not understand, it's time, they either become more empathetic, or it's time to find someone else. You're a beautiful woman I'm sorry this happened to you. Hang in there, and remember for every bad day there is a good one right around the corner. I hope you keep posting your progress.

I thank you Darkhorse, for your advice, insight and for sharing your story with us. It sounds like you've been through a great deal and it sounds like you are strong. The good moments/hours are certainly when I attempt to do the more difficult tasks, always hearing my Dr.'s voice in my head "Don't Push Yourself".

Difficult tasks a year ago would have been trying to move a sofa from one room to the other on my own because I was too stubborn to wait for help. Now, a difficult task is watering the plants, doing a load of laundry, eating. I always enjoyed doing laundry, one of those tasks you could see through to completion, a simple accomplishment in a life when some many things are left undone. I live in a 4 level split home, my bedroom on the uppermost level and the laundry 4 flights down (7 stairs each). I have recently listed my beautiful little home and am searching for a small one bedroom condo that I can manage better in.

Thanks again for all the support everyone. Truly, I am very grateful.

[Sharon]

XXX

[DiamondSmiles]

Originally Posted by WinglessAngel ↗

@ DiamondSmiles

Hi! Hmmm, you've stumped me a bit with the 'depressed a couple of months ago' statement. I have had a LOT happen in the past year but I wouldn't say I've been depressed. I may have been down, but depression is something I battled once in 2006 and I've not experienced it since. I would recognize that evil if it ever touched my soul again.

I had written about my sister having e-coli and not being able to be treated, my mom becoming ill two days before Christmas, which made for a really sad holiday season immediately followed by me becoming sick. Then there was my car getting destroyed by vandals, that sucked. And of course my son moving out felt like the end of my world and I was sad but only sad like any mother whose only child leaves the nest. I'm also entering year 3 of an ongoing legal matter, but that too shall come to an end and when it does, I will have victory embroidered on all of my bath towels.

Even with all of these things going on I am not fighting depression. I laugh easily and cry once in a while when it's late and I miss the sounds of my son and his friends. It's easy to smile, I find humor and joy in an abundance of things.

Right now, I just want to feel healthy again for more than an hour or two. I'd like to have a bit of fun, maybe go to a beach for a few days in the warmth of the sun ...that would be really nice.

And, by the way, thank you for reminding me that you and others are here and really do listen. It means a lot to me.

Wrong angel, lol! I hope she got help :)

The offer still stands. Since we are all in different time zones, there is usually someone on here any time of the day or night to talk, wherever you are.

My back is messed up from C4/C5 to L5/S1 and I have carpal tunnel syndrome of my right hand so I know how difficult doing laundry and such can be. Sadly, my mother is 76 and had a stroke in 2004. She cannot drive anymore and my brother has a dislocated shoulder and insists on pushing it himself when he isn't sleeping or at the bar.

I am in the best condition, which is sad. I used to love ironing! I'm the oddball! I liked getting every little crease out and try to wear all cotton, where possible. By the time I get anywhere, I'm all wrinkled from the seatbelt anyway, lol!

Lifting groceries kills my back. Where I have to bend at the waist is very painful, but, I think of all the people who are much worse.

I was at an oldies show last week and a man, who was all hunched over with two of those brace/crutches, (I'm ignorant as to what they are called), and had one leg bent out and shoes with thick soles and his wife, who had a walker, oxygen and walked slowly, were walking to the bathroom. I slowed down when I realized we were all going to the same place and was talking to them. He was very pleasant. I asked the wife if she needed help and she just wanted the door closed so I told her I'll lock her in and she laughed.

They had a male escort and I figured he felt funny asking her. I can drive and walk so I'm happy about that. Not long distances, but, again, better than some people, but, not as well as others.

I pick up my 7 year old great niece twice a week and we go to the playground on nice days, then hang out with my 18 1/2 month old great nephew, who is a character, so all is good! I love them very much!

Just keep your positive attitude and enjoy the little things that make you happy! I know you will be alright! I think we all do :)

[DVEEUS]

just now seeing this WA...wow...how horrifying for you...i am glad you are slowly but surely getting your strength back...wishing all the best for you...keep you chin and spirits up...:)