[Entropy]

Originally Posted by Vixənn ↗

I was told that in the days leading up to when my birthmom committed suicide, that her behavior had become almost too okay, & that she seemed just overly happy. she took her nephew on a shopping spree & spoiled him & her siblings & her parents with surprise gifts & affection & lovebombing & everyone around her started to believe that maybe she was finally starting to get better.

& then she fucking shot herself in the heart alone in a hotel room somewhere in Colorado.

A little late to this thread, but reading your posts is heartbreaking. Glad to read you're doing well, despite lingering pain. Not the sort of thing that shall ever go away, and the unknowns must be infuriating, but it sure doesn't sound like she wanted to be parted from you back when you were wee. I cannot imagine the scarring that would have caused her. At the same time, the wrapping up of her life and bestowing so much love and affection upon those she shall miss is hauntingly beautiful.

It is also a classic sign in the chronically depressed and suicidal. The increase in energy of a severely depressed person prior to suiciding is a hallmark sign; I am a paramedic, and have seen much of this. I often think how those left behind see it as sad that the person made that choice (beyond their own grief I mean; they imagine the act as despair in the moment), but for the person leaving, the raise in mood is due to impending escape. They attained the freedom they sought.

(It's a different setting of course for those who perform more spur of the moment suicides; these are more preventable through various means, including presence of others. But those with long-term ideation who finally make the choice, their mood does often lift. It's a weight off that they've finally decided and are tidying things up and arranging their departure.)

Anyway, my love to you. I doubt she went a day without thinking of you. <3

[Vixənn]

Originally Posted by Entropy ↗

A little late to this thread, but reading your posts is heartbreaking. Glad to read you're doing well, despite lingering pain. Not the sort of thing that shall ever go away, and the unknowns must be infuriating, but it sure doesn't sound like she wanted to be parted from you back when you were wee. I cannot imagine the scarring that would have caused her. At the same time, the wrapping up of her life and bestowing so much love and affection upon those she shall miss is hauntingly beautiful.

It is also a classic sign in the chronically depressed and suicidal. The increase in energy of a severely depressed person prior to suiciding is a hallmark sign; I am a paramedic, and have seen much of this. I often think how those left behind see it as sad that the person made that choice (beyond their own grief I mean; they imagine the act as despair in the moment), but for the person leaving, the raise in mood is due to impending escape. They attained the freedom they sought.

(It's a different setting of course for those who perform more spur of the moment suicides; these are more preventable through various means, including presence of others. But those with long-term ideation who finally make the choice, their mood does often lift. It's a weight off that they've finally decided and are tidying things up and arranging their departure.)

Anyway, my love to you. I doubt she went a day without thinking of you. <3

I guess when her body was discovered in that hotel room, there wasnt any mess. she even had been considerate enough to gather up her belongings together & lay them out neatly with her suicide note right on top.
the cops said it really looked like she knew what she was doing, & she did it respectfully.

thank you, I appreciate your kind words.
they really mean a lot.

[philovan]

Originally Posted by texastea ↗

Why is she defamed by being called a "whore"?

She worked in the adult film industry, having sex with her boyfriend.

Simone places people of whom she doesn't approve in inflexible categories, always characterizing them with derogatory terms. If you don't see the world the narrow way she sees it, you are contemptible in her eyes and she will inevitably stigmatize you.

Still, she is a great poster.

[christmascandy1]

wow..2 young 2

[ohorribleworld]

Only a fool would say the things you said. She’s a human being. You are definitely not superior to her, and are most likely the type of guy that she made $ off of. Have some respect little fool.

[SimoneFlen']

Originally Posted by ohorribleworld ↗

Only a fool would say the things you said. She’s a human being. You are definitely not superior to her, and are most likely the type of guy that she made $ off of. Have some respect little fool.

I'm assuming that is aimed at me? Yes, I am superior to her, she was a slut. I, on the other hand, am not. I do not respect scum.

You think that I'm most likely the type of guy she made money from? I'm female for a start. Even if I was a bloke, I would never pay some disease-ridden prozzie for a shag!

What a pointless bumping up of a thread that hasn't been commented on for 9 months!

[Faust]

Originally Posted by Simone ↗

I'm assuming that is aimed at me? Yes, I am superior to her, she was a slut. I, on the other hand, am not. I do not respect scum.

You think that I'm most likely the type of guy she made money from? I'm female for a start. Even if I was a bloke, I would never pay some disease-ridden prozzie for a shag!

What a pointless bumping up of a thread that hasn't been commented on for 9 months!

I really respect you and what you post and everything. I understand why you would call her a whore but you never now what really is going on. We have an acquaintance that worked as a prostitute but found out she was taking care of her kid, she worked 1-2 evenings when the kid was at a relative and she could pay for everything herself still and take good care of the kid. She is still a “whore” but once he goes to primary school she will resume work as a pharmacy assistant (where my girlfriend new her from) anyway no disrespect to you

[Vixənn]

ding dong the whore is dead.

[K53]

I would be a steady customer

[VileBreed]

Underwhelming