I lost the only three people on earth who gave a shit if i woke up or not ..within a year, depressed, alone ,scared shitless , cried for months but never would have taken my life, that is the easy way out..
That's awesome. I had a friend who committed suicide and rather then be sad I was pissed as that is the chickenshit route and only screws the ones who do love you.
Hopefully things are better now