[Faline]

[GoreisGreat]

[RustWorthy]

hot head

[mcpronoun]

What a wop greaseball douchebag... nice professionalism there guido.

[MartiNation]

what a fucking cunt!

[kellyhound]

wonder if he was a cop before.

[icheerthebull]

bet the 'drug addict' lives a lot longer then that fat fucker

[PTSD Is My Life]

I'm with him, all the way. He has nailed it right there.

How do I know? Because I am literally waking up from the 7-8 year nightmare drug frazzled sleep that I have been in due to prescribed opiates.
I got fucked up in Iraq in 2005 (I don't give a fuck what people "think" of whats going on out there or if you want to call me for being there) and was disabled out of the military (UK) in 2008 a year or so after they started pumping me with Tramadol (an Opiate) and then they changed it to Tramadol (4 x daily) AND Fentanyl by contact patch so I receive a constant drip feed (apparently equivalent to 360mgs heroin) when the pain didn't reduce much and then onto brain altering drugs (Progabilin and then Gabapenthin) and then they put me onto Tramadol now "as needed" (up to 6-8 times daily) Fentanyl (increased dosage by 1/4 but after not being able to crawl to the toilet with it on I went back to the the lower dose they tried raising it again last year to almost double what I am on now!) and OraMorph (Oral Morphine to be taken, like the Tramadol "As Required" 4-6 times daily but apparently its OK to push it on occasion as I am (apparently) very morphine tolerant - after 7 years at these levels? no shit Sherlock!

A recent medical check-up organised by a very switched on Surgeon and the Cambridge University tested my tolerances and the levels of "opiate toxicity" of my blood and found I was running with blood so "toxic" they are quite frankly stunned I am alive and have not had a major organ (heart, liver, kidney etc) failure as I am taking daily up to 20 - 30 times that which one of their typical study people in the "functioning" (productively working, not wrecked and out of society mainstream but still heavily addicted and the main group of their study to find just how these people can continually get away with it when others on far less are "hollow shells") heroin addict.

They put my physical state down to the fact I was naturally physically strong, stockily built and (in their words) robust and not a (again their words) a "highly strung" gym victim or road pounder who constantly put their body under stress to maintain a peak (and natuarally false) fitness. Don't get me wrong I went to the gym and I went running (christ I was in my mid 30's and training and having to PT with 18 yer old pups so I couldn't come in last)! But I knew my strength was in heavy weight over distance and time and it fitted my chosen operations of choice.
They where/are even more interested in my ability to not "implode" of have "life crisis" points where I have tried suicide (I have genuinely contemplated it but I have been through too much shite in my life to give up on it just yet).
I am about to start a self imposed (with their knowledge) reduction program with the hope of being able to get off the fentanyl first over the upcoming months (the dose is so large it would be too dangerous to go cold turkey and it would cause possible permanent damage and would undoubtedly fail as my body just wouldn't be able to function without the Opiates it is now dependent on.

This man has it spot on, I am in a worse state than this employee and watching this has given me even more determination to get off the drugs I believe I was put on to keep me quiet and sedated so I wouldn't kick up a fuss about the lack of effective treatment by the Military and the Government, and I am not alone there are hundreds of injured ex military injured in many nations being sedated in this way....until life becomes pointless and they just take the very easy way out.....its in their medicine cabinets.

I on a rare lucid day checked my meds as I was looking to re-order and found I had over 700 tramadol tablets spread around the 3 cabinets and a further 200 in my top-up box......A bloody junkie would have a field day on that stuff alone!!

I JUST HOPE I CAN MAKE IT. I am planning to start my step down program around the end of February....1st of march sounds good....hold on tight its going to be a bummmmmmpy ride. -

Anyone need tramadol and fentanyl? only kidding I wouldn't pass this shit onto my worst enemy.

[joak]

i like this guy.

that staggering fucking idiot is lucky he got an earful of honesty and not a fucking boot in the ass.

[breakersailer]

PTSD your right what your saying here in the US they load you with antidepressants as well and wonder why 1 in 4 combat vets off themselves. I am in the new treatment for PTSD myself here in the US it is with the Veterans Aministration but not part of the main VA hospitals which are still full of crap treating PTSD. I have been through 12 weeks and now starting 12 to 20 weeks PE therapy. The doctor over this believes in very limited medicines and this is the only reason I would even consider going through the program. The UK needs a program like we have at Ft Thomas, it is a hard road however you go but at least these people are dealing with the issues, the memories and all that crap. The PE has an 85% success rate. We will see 26 years of Adrenaline addiction and now that I am an old fucker I would just like to get some sleep! Hang in their bro and stay off the pain killers, been there done that your mind can adapt to pain and it becomes something you just live with.