[mrayzorsharp]

seems to me that alot of people here have some experience coming face to face with death. or have been close to tragedy all on their own. some other folks make it painfully obvious with snide remarks on others misfortune, that they, in fact, have not. so what i want to see here is what you, members of this site, have to offer on your own behalf. maybe photos or video of you caught in the act of really fucking yourselves up. or maybe your story. how did you face your own mortality? i knowfor me, before nov. 1st 2007, i was a war veteran, a motocross racer, and a drummer. i was also drug free and engaged. funny how in a split second the world as you know it absolutely changes. the pictures i have posted here are of me. being myself. living my life. and crashing hard. life after the crash left me hardly able to speak and am officially a blue hadicapped rearview mirror tag owner. before my accident, i could never look at things like what is on this site. now, its like watching cartoons. strange change. so who out there has faced death? and are obviously not dead, of course. you know, its funny. at the precise moment the last picture was taken, my life was fine. there are no on scene aftermath photos. my fiance' dropped the camera and ran over to help. i wasnt awake for that. yes, that telephone pole directly in front of me had myself and 200 pounds of motorcycle wrapped around it not even a second after the pic was taken. lost 65% usage in right arm, lost all hearing in right ear, and vision now pretty much limited to whatever is within 15 feet of me. broke my jaw severely and severed nerves giving me the stalone look, fucking my speech up. and broke my neck. i have head 12 surgeries trying to gain any sense of normalcy, but i will never get it back. and to think i was once normal.....

[jenna_live]

First off god never gives you anything you cant handle . I wish you well . Me i kill myself evey day . closer and closer . Without feeling even more worthless ill just stop there .

[mrayzorsharp]

thanks, and yeah, i've come to terms with it all. it sucks. but lets not fly off the handle here. i want to see YOUR pics and vids. i want to hear YOUR story. fuck mine, it sucks.

[SSA181]

this happened when you were doing something that you loved not in something benile ie car crash or something like that. Keep up the gr8 work mate

[mrayzorsharp]

this is what my goofy ass face looks like now... how attractive.

[Shadowkeeper]

mrayzorsharp, first, I can't say enough for your strength of character to have come through what you have...

My own experiences with death are from a combination of being there with people when they died in a nursing home I worked at, to watching a freind's mother die from a heart attack right in front of me when I was very young, followed by some close childhood freinds dying from several things including lukemia (that's soooo fuckin hard to watch for freinds, I can't imagine what it's like for the family) and a suicide (thus my having studied the psychology behind it extensively)...to the really hard one, the death of my first fiance, the love of my life since I was in first grade, when she was killed in a hit and run by a drunk driver (they caught him, he got a slap on the wrist, I hope I never meet him or that judge in an alley)

That last one really fucked me in the head for a long, long time...

Sorry, no pics of any of it, and sorry if my quips at some pics have offended you or left you with the impression I don't care, it's quite the opposite - dark humor is a normal coping mechanism

Hope this is the type of thing you're looking for, even if there are no pics to go with it

[mrayzorsharp]

so, basically. i didnt start this thread to bae all about me. when i first saw this site it made me think... " shit, that could've been me, all wadded up and dead." but im not, and im thankful. i want to hear your story. maybe you have some images, maybe not. but i want to know all about it. please share.

[Shadowkeeper]

Originally Posted by mrayzorsharp ↗

so, basically. i didnt start this thread to bae all about me. when i first saw this site it made me think... " shit, that could've been me, all wadded up and dead." but im not, and im thankful. i want to hear your story. maybe you have some images, maybe not. but i want to know all about it. please share.

It's a good concept, I like it

[zadfrackglutz]

beirut, need i say more? anniversay soon

[coverdale0]

Ok first you. I think you are still handsome. Your fiancee stayed. Not as bad as it could have been.

My first near death was childbirth. Seems I'm built to get pregnant, but not to carry. Fucked up joke God played on me.(if..there is such a thing) I almost bled to death first time, second time and idiot me the third time was the worst, cause I almost took her with me. Placenta previa.
Then there was the thyroid problems. 92 Lbs Size0 and I'm 5'7. I looked disgusting. Tits looked liked droopy bags. Then they radiated me. Which of course caused Thyroid cancer. (they say not...)1 lymph node. cervical cancer. I said well shit take it out it's not like I need it. Ha
Oh and when I was 12 my stepdad beat me so bad I wish I could post a picture, cause I was so black and blue I made child abuse posters look tame. Then...my mom tried to commit suicide in front of me and I still maintain suicide is a selfish act. She failed.btw. I'm 44 and I'm ready to die mentally, but I would never ever do that to my kids.So I clean toilets and go through my sucky ass life for them.One day when I die put me on here. clothed.( I hear the comments about the naked women.)Pass on that part. Ha. Life isn't too bad though. There's always good old sleep. and pot of course.