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02-21-2010, 10:01 PM
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Re: Suicide Notes
My older brother hung himself when I was eight years old. He did it in the dirt floor basement using rope from my old tire swing. My father found him the next morning when the neighbors called and said the basement doors were open. Me and my little sister were sent to the neighbors house while the police and EMT's did their thing. I was watching out the window when they brought the body up wrapped in black on a stretcher. Twentyseven years later I still wish he was alive and that I could have known him.
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02-22-2010, 03:40 AM
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Re: Suicide Notes
I stumbled on this site a couple months ago and kept coming back due to a morbid curiosity. However, the occasional posts like these have really stirred up my sense of empathy toward the pain and turmoil of others. The last words detailing the inner struggles that caused these people to make a decision of such finality is truly heartbreaking. This was certainly an enlightening thread.
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02-22-2010, 04:59 AM
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Re: Suicide Notes
thank you Aria, i don't know if words can express what this means to me. there are angry bitter notes, but there are some that i understand, those who share feelings of guilt, sorrow, pain. only once have i ever left a note. just a short note to my kids expressing my sadness and an apology for having to leave them, but a surety that it was the right thing to do to save them. i left it in the truck to be found later. my body to be found by a passing hiker someday. fortunately or unfortunately a friend figured out what i was doing when i passed on a message about my bank account. he called in a favor to a friend in a high place for my cell to be pinged and triangulated. if i had known that could be done without my being on a call i would have turned it off and left it in the truck. but i wasn't thinking to clearly, i did the whole thing drunk. hypothermia doesn't hurt when you pass out. SAR found my body eight hours after my suicidal odyssey had begun, still passed out cold just off the trail, i had an 85 core temp but i was still saved. i'll never forget waking up the next day in the ER all packed in heated blankets and hot packs with warmed IV's running. i was pissed off. but i know there is a reason for my life and someday i will be told.
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