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01-13-2012, 04:56 PM
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| My Rank: PRIVATE Poster Rank:8851 Female Join Date: Nov 2009 Posts: 18 Mentioned: 2 Post(s) Quoted: 1 Post(s)
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Re: Bullimic Death
I've been battling bulemia since I was 17; I am now 33. I would throw up naked so I could get the lowest number possible on the scale after throwing up. I would hide the purging by pretending to shower after eating (so nobody hears the toilet flushing all the time; they'll just hear the shower water running) or by throwing up in trash bags in my room. I've always wondered about dumpster divers who may happen to come across my trash bags..yuck. I almost passed out one time from binging and purging and it was scary as fuck, but I can't stop doing it! Although, through the years, it started out as 3-5 times a day to now once or twice a month if I'm feeling anxious about something. This is a very sick mental disorder and I hate myself after everytime.
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01-13-2012, 06:12 PM
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Re: Bullimic Death
You can read Karen Carpenter's autopsy at autopsyfiles.org, and several other peoples'. Some of the autopsies are very interesting. I could never gag myself. I only stuck my hand down my throat when I was choking on a chicken finger. I got real silverware after that, lol! The waitress knew I was a wiseass so she said if she had seen me, she would have thought I was joking. No joke! Very scary. |