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#637
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07-12-2009, 02:13 AM
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Re: Some EMO Girl Needs Serious Help
I know this is a longwinded reply and it my very first post on here but here goes....... Yes these images are shocking, confronting and gruesome. Self mutilation is not pretty; it leaves your body ugly and scared for life. This girl obliviously needs help not criticisms or judgement from people that don’t understand. This is an extreme case of self mutilation I admit that but most SI are NOT EMOs or even suicidal but just normal people like me. I admit I am a cutter but I am an average woman with a family and pretty much normal in every way. You would never guess I cut myself at all. She looks like she might have an underlying mental illness like me. I am not ashamed of it at all but I admit I have a mental illness (Like any illness ...it is not like I asked for it... why should I be ashamed?)...I have Borderline Personality Disorder (BDP). BPD affects how people feel about themselves. I have had it all my life. My self-image gets so low I often engage in suicidal behavior resulting in frequent hospitalizations. Most times I receive ECT treatments (Electro Convulsive Therapy/shock treatment... cos my meds don’t work) I don't self harm to cause other people heartache, I know it does hurt other people but it is not my intention. It is not a way to get attention as lots of people think as chronic, repetitive self-injurers like me often do not want attention and hide their scars very carefully. My children have never seen my wounds and scars and I will never show them to them unless in the future when they are adults there is a need for some reason. Self-Injury must appear like an irrational action and an almost incomprehensible thought to most people. Little is understood why people go to such extremes and partake in self injurious behaviour to validate inner their emotions and pain. Self Injury can become an addiction...like smoking or a drug. Even if I don't want to I need it because it has become an addiction. Self harm is a coping mechanism; some people need it to survive. It is a way of punishing myself in response to feelings of shame, guilt and worthlessness. It provides me with a feeling of control. Self-harm is one way I can have a sense of control over my life, feelings, or body. Often it can be the healthiest option to for me in a way it prevents suicide by easing the current pain. I, in no way encourage or condone self injury in any way. If you should consider self harm yourself... please... PLEASE... take me and this girl as an example and consider therapy or other ways to ease your pain and show your true feelings. It is a dark torturous road to go down and if you start it is almost impossible to stop so seek professional help before you do anything rash or harmful to your body like this girl or even me. I thought about it and to me there are four main reasons why I do it: It is a way of punishing myself in response to feelings of shame, guilt and worthlessness. It provides a way to express anger, sadness, grief or hurt. When I cut the blood helps take away the bad feelings. It provides a way to express difficult or hidden feelings. When I feel unable to use the right words it is a way of communicating to people how I really feel inside. (I cut words into my flesh... like empty, ugly, I’m numb and pain) It is not uncommon for me to feel numb or empty as a result of overwhelming feelings. It is a means of feeling something, even if the sensation is unpleasant and painful. The pain makes me feel more alive when I am feeling numb and dead inside. It provides me with a feeling of control. Self-harm is one way I can have a sense of control over my life, feelings, or body, especially if you feel as if other things in your life are out of control. It is also a way of proving to myself I am not invisible. Please don’t judge me for what I feel... I am just being honest like I always am. |
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#638
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07-12-2009, 02:24 AM
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Re: Some EMO Girl Needs Serious Help
Angel with attitude, I would of quoted you, but that was kinda long and I didn't want to. Anyway, I applaud you for what you said. I'd get into more detail, but I honestly don't want to. |